~DONT CARE ANYMORE~

A moral man

Lately, i am having exam, felling much stress, i cannot sleep well or eat well and very dull. I just sitting there by the night, thinking and zoning out at the dining table. My eyes go blurry and i don't even know what i'm thinking by the way. At this moment, my dad just came back from the work. He walked in and saw me. Before he by-pass me, he possibly saw me staring into space and didn't touch my meal. He sit down at my side and say: "Son, what are you thinking? Why you didn't eat?". "Nothing", I replied sluggishly. "Son i know you very stress, don't worry too much ok." "I am stress dad, how can i not worry, i cannot even get good results, i had failed you, i very regret in the past, and now i cannot even do a little bit better." He say: "Son, don't think about the past, think about the future, as long as you didn't fail like last time, good result is doesn't matter. Let me tell you, rich people can eat meat but as for us, an average can also eat meat too. The rich can eat meat everyday, as for us we can eat once a week, couldn't we? The rich eat meat everyday so they have more health problem than us, didn't they?" I smile a bit, almost tend to laugh, but i hold as he continued: "Other people are smart, yes they do, so they can get higher mark, they can get 90 or 100 marks, so if you are not that smart then you can at least get 70 marks or 60 marks if really cannot manage 70. Right? Don't be worry too much, you still got father, your father still can move (what he mean here is he can still work even he is old). So, just try your best, son." The last word make me feel even more sorry for him, because as his son i failed not only cannot perform well but also failed as a son to a father. Father's day has just over last week and I didn't manage to celebrate with him much. I had promised myself to such a wise and loving dad that i will try my best in my life, at least try my best. I had noted down this in my blog to keep remind me that i have a dad which is such a great man and he had given me a valuable lesson that enlighten my life. Thank you, dad~ for supporting your irrational and emotional son.

The things that you and I didn't know~

In this world, we all live in a  modern and high-technology era that improve our lifestyle and provide a more comfort life nowadays. However days pass, they so called city-people and what i termed as "modernized hybrid" had somewhat developed an "intuition" that they can own this world somehow through power, wealth and overthrow others in order to achieve that. These can be seen throughout our daily life everywhere and any time. List of samples that  often can be seen. Sometimes you spread news about others who failed to do something, but you don't know they have serious family issue and other factors etc that leads to that failure. Sometimes you look down others that are retarded and bizarre behaviour, but you don't know they are born like that without choices. Sometimes you comment about others clothes, but you don't know their clothes are bought by their parents or a gift from others etc. Sometimes you smell a disgusting odour about others bodies,but you don't know that they have diseases that give him a smelly sense. Sometimes you criticised others that just smile a lot, but instead you also laugh when you criticising. Sometimes you dislike someone and friend-zoned others just because you judge them by their cover or simply just dislike for no reasons.  If you say they are really bad and hurt you until you deeply wounded, then it's fine. In all these cases, that the others here refer to those who are good and kind hearted. A motivational speaker once say in his speech that "Those who disfavor others are those who don't have proper manner". This is so true as. You claimed you are religious, but instead you dare against what thought by religions which are to be good to others. You claimed you are strong, but instead of protect you bully those who are weak. You claimed you are rich, but instead of helping those in need you mistreat those who are poor. You claimed you are educated, but instead your morality didn't even achieved the fit line. You claimed you have the power to change the world but instead of changing to become better you worsen it than the past. You claimed you are who you are, but you just ignored what others people really are. You insult them like that you also insult the creation of GOD. Our doings, our works, our consequences. Yours uncompromising condemnation of humanity have toxified the society and the world.Where is your humanity? Where is your heart? You asked me: "Where is mine?", then you are just blind that you cannot see it. Don't turn yourself in these. Those who jump in are those who think they are one of them. So instead you just bad mouth and bad comment. Just spend time and try to understand and be on others people shoes, you can't be perfect so don't expect others to be perfect. Just because others didn't tell you their reasons behind and cannot reached your expectation, doesn't mean they don't deserve a living for their own. Solomon norhtup say that "I don't want to survive. I want to live." That's living is hard enough so don't turn down those who wanted to live. Let's make the world a better place. A sincere smile to others is a thousands praises. I know there are still many good person out there. “Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” by Martin Luther King Jr. is often an inspirational sentence that live up till today.

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好声音，好梦影

刚看完了我是歌手-第二季-第13期-总决赛-歌王冠军之战，哇，好长的名字啊！恭喜萌叔韩磊得冠，果然是好猛啊！其实呢昨晚我就知道是他拿冠军的了因为每次听他唱歌，虽然歌曲都是些比较经典的老歌，有些还没听过但都唱的像听过好熟悉的感觉。。。再次恭喜。也恭喜马来西亚歌手-茜拉和曹格勇闯决赛。好了，我今天的焦点其实是~她是个好歌手，她是大美人，她也是摇滚范儿，她的声音更是感人，她就是邓紫棋啦！邓紫棋是位香港歌手，其实我很好奇叻，她那么早出道又得过那么多奖，为什么没有太多人认识她呢？在还没参加我是歌手之前，记得在两或三年前，在一个香港的音乐颁奖里看到她唱歌就觉得好有才华，然后后期有关注她，但也没有太多她的消息。还有一个重点她和我一样1991年出生的，这不是重点？错，是重点的，她好年轻哦，好像讲到自己了，哈哈。最近知道她失恋了，也替她感到。。。什么人既然舍得伤害她，像她那样可爱又有才华的人，身边追她的人多到可以堵掉长城。算了，会有更好的人在等待~

以下是她在我是歌手唱的歌曲~请欣赏





其实，我很少写关于艺人的话题，像这次是想写我是歌手让人认识很多很棒的歌手，可是紫棋让我有一种莫名的感处，尤其是她第7期《如果没有你》，让我想起了我婆婆，泪流了很多。我害怕寂寞孤单，更害怕存在~我想每个人都害怕寂寞吧，徘徊有他/她的存在记忆里，有时真的很痛苦。因为有存在过，才会如此。 因为记忆是美好，就因为美好，才会让人回忆，也因为这美好不在了，消失了，而才会让人难受。。。但是也因为有了这些的存在着，我开始学会了寂寞,享受孤独，也学会了把回忆看成一场超美好的梦，享受着，就算梦醒了，也会是快乐的。

学生期的紫棋

搞笑可爱紫棋

甜美的笑容

认真时~最喜欢的服装

最疼爱的人~

再次强调我不是哲学家，写作家，更不是艺人宣传和代言人，我是抒发情绪的追梦者。。。

世界~用真诚去感受

律、虑、绿之声

已经凌晨四点多，外面正下着大雨，还久没下了，都挺热的，也好，下下，凉快一些，哈哈。刚看了《我是歌手》第二季第十二期的演唱，竞演歌手的演唱曲目都是我非常熟识的，都是以前听的歌，像是茜拉的《洋蔥》，曹格的《Saving All My Love for You》张杰的《just the way you are》和鄧紫棋的《你不是真正的快樂》，我超喜欢的歌，磊叔的《在那遙遠的地方》我爸以前常听的歌。听完了后，有一种如同我的文章标题,像风一样的感觉，飘荡着。。。但听到鄧紫棋的《你不是真正的快樂》，我就有点感伤，可是又同时觉得没那么觉得。最近都是忙着课业，人事和家人，都很晚睡，有时真的很想放弃，虽然每天还是笑着，很快乐似的，但是都不是。其实想想为何要那么不快乐呢？日子还是要过，地球还是会转，开心过一天是一天。張宇的《20歲的眼淚》就唱出了这心声，要像筆筆的歌《光之翼》里一样散放光芒~ 有些事你越逃避就越逃避不了，不去想？所以只能面对现实啦~

未来得失未知数，过往得失过之急，现在得失现珍惜~

也很晚了该睡，晚安~

Sheepish

OMG, what have i done today? I accidentally click the call button....

Long story....it begins with

A beautiful and hot afternoon, i'm just back from the campus, very tired seems i haven't  had much sleep last night due to research. After shower, i laid down on the bed as my body seems to paralyse, however my itchy hand still working its way to my handphone. I listen to music while finding movie with my handphone using my ear plug headset. Meanwhile, a message come in through line apps, so i click in and see, but don't know how and why, i accidentally scroll down and click in to her picture. After seeing it, ya...in fact pretty, later i want to close the apps, but now come a much BIG problem, this time even worse, i accidentally click the call button. I'm like "OMG!" and quickly tap the end call continually, all out, why it did not end, still it takes time to end the call...I see the notification had sent....OK! I'M SO DAMN DOOMED!

As readers may not know how my expressions are, below are some illustration:

"WHY? OH LORD,WHY HER?", is what i think at that moment, why not other people, i may have say sorry it's just an accident. It really just an accident or fate? I don't know either. At that moment, i really hope i got teleportation and time-stop power, so i can just delete the notification on her phone...i keep thinking about the incident and didn't know what to do, i even scream hardly in my heart. Well, just hope she didn't notice it...as i'm just a passer-by...

This made the end of a day...night fall in...mind run out...rain roll down...wind blow up...hope favor will work up just fine in odd

【飛機上的紅薯干】

[中文版]

我是航空公司的一名普通的空姐，由於參加工作沒幾年，所以沒有遇到一件叫人難忘的大事，天天都是在端茶倒水的小事中度過。沒有工作的激情，很平淡。　

可是那天遇到的一件事情卻叫我改變了對工作對人生的看法。　

今天我們執行上海北京航機時，旅客很多，滿滿的一飛機。　

上飛機的人群中就有一位很不起眼的農村老伯伯，背著一個大麻袋，身上還有一股農村特有的土炕味。當時站在機門迎客的我第一個反映就是現下的社會還真發達了，連農村老伯伯都有錢坐飛機，真奢侈。　

當飛機平飛時，我們開始加水，加到20多排時，看到了這位老伯伯，他很拘謹的坐在座位上，直挺挺的，一動不動，麻袋也不放在行李架上，老伯伯抱著大麻袋，乍一看像是個支著地球的地球儀，直挺挺象個雕塑。　

問他喝什麼，他很驚慌的連連擺手說不要。要幫他把麻袋放在架子上，他也拒絕。只好由著他抱著了。　

過一會，開始發餐了，我們發現他還是一動不動的坐在座位上，感覺好像很緊張的樣子，給他飯他還是連連擺手說「不要」。于是乘務長過去親切的問他是不是病了，他很小聲的說他要上廁所，但是不知道飛機上能不能亂跑，怕碰壞了飛機上的東西。　


我們告訴他沒關係的，並叫一個男空保帶他去了廁所。等我們第二次加水的時候，發現他看著別的客人喝水，在舔嘴，于是沒有問他就幫他倒了一杯熱茶水給他放在桌子上。誰知，這樣一個動作卻驚嚇住了他，他蹦一下跳起來連連說不用不用，我們對他說：您渴了，就喝點吧。

這時他做了一個更驚人的動作，從懷裡掏出一把錢，都是一塊一毛 的，要塞給我們。

我們告訴他說這是不要錢的，他不相信，說他在街上走的時候進去要水喝別人都從來沒給過他，都是很厭惡的趕他走。

我們這才知道，他為了節約錢， 一路上能不座車就走，硬是從郊區走到機場附近才坐車到了機場，他身上沒多少錢，只能問路上的餐廳要水，可惜大多數時候都是被趕出來，別人以為他是要飯的。　

我們勸了好一陣子，他才相信了我們，坐下，慢慢的喝著茶。

我們問他餓不餓，要不 要吃飯，他還是連連說不要，他說他有兩個兒子，都很爭氣，考了大學，小兒子在上大三，大兒子已經工作了。這次他來北京看他上大學的小兒子，由於大兒子已經工作了， 想把他們兩口子接到城裡來跟自己住，可是老兩口不習慣，住了一陣又回鄉下了。


這次是大兒子不想讓老爹舟車勞頓，特意買的飛機票，本來想陪老爹一起去，因為老爹沒坐過飛機怕他不認識路，可是老爹嫌飛機票太浪費，死活不肯坐。后來勸通了，老爹怎麼也不叫兒子再買一張票浪費錢，堅持自己一個人來。他背了一麻袋的紅薯干，要給小兒子吃。

上飛機前安檢時，從業人員說麻袋太大叫託運，可是他死活不肯，說怕弄碎了，小兒子不喜歡吃了。
我們告訴他說放在架子上很安全的，他警惕的站起來看了半天才小心的放上去。

在航機期間我們一直很勤的給他加水，他都很有禮貌的謝謝我們。可是他還是一直堅持不吃飯。儘管我們看出來他已經餓的咕咕叫。


到飛機快落地的時候，他很小心的問我們有沒有袋子，給他一個，並要求我們把他自己的那份飯裝好提給他。他說他從來沒見過這麼好吃的東西，他要帶給他的小兒子。

我們都驚住了。對于我們來說，天天見的飯菜，在一個農村老人眼裡是這樣的珍貴。他自己舍不得吃，餓著，要留給他的兒子。

于是我們把剩餘沒有發的餐都裝好了準備給他，可是他很驚慌的拒絕了，他說他只要屬于他自己的那份，不占別人的便宜。我們都被這樣的一個老人感動了。雖然不是什麼大事，但是卻深刻的教育了我。


本來以為事情結束了，誰知道在別的客人下完以後，他最後下飛機，我們幫他把麻袋提到了退場門，正準備幫他背上，他做出了一個讓我一輩子都忘不了的動作︰

他撲通一聲跪在地上，老淚縱橫的給我們磕頭，一邊磕一邊說：「你們真是大好人，我們農村人一天只吃一頓飯，從來沒喝過這樣甜的水，見過這樣好的飯，今天你們不嫌棄我，這麼熱情的對我， 我真不知道怎么樣感謝你們，希望你們好人有好報。」

一邊跪一邊說一邊哭，我們大家慌忙扶起他，連連勸他，並交代一個地面服務生將他安頓好，我們才回飛機上繼續執行我們的任務。

說實在話，工作5年，飛機上什麼樣的客人都見過了，野蠻的，打人的，無理取鬧的，就是沒見過給我們下跪的。

說實在的我們真沒有做什麼特別的事，就是給他老人家多倒了兩杯水，竟要這個70多歲的老伯伯跪下謝我們，再加上看這他背著一麻袋紅薯干。

自己不肯吃，寧願餓著把飛機上的飯帶下去給兒子，還不肯多要別人的飯貪便宜，我真為我自己感到內疚，這個老伯伯教會我怎麼去善良正直的活著。

[English version]

I am a common air hostess from China East Airline.  I have not worked many years, nor have I encountered anything grand or unforgettable. Every day I give tea or water to passengers.  There is no inspiration.  Life has been dull until today, June 7, 2008, when one thing changed my view of work and life.

Our aircraft was packed with passengers today going from Shanghai to Beijing.  An old farmer was among the group getting on the plane.  He was not in any way standing out from the crowd, carrying a huge sack, smelling typically like the Kang of the countryside. Greeting people at the door,I thought that economy nowadays is truly so strong that old rural men can afford air tickets.

When the plane was moving steadily ahead, we started to serve beverages. I came to the 20th row and saw this old man. Sitting bolt upright, motionless and nervous, he looked like a fish out of water. He was holding his sack tightly, which seemed a globe, sticking up like a statue.When I asked him what he would like to drink, he kept waving his hand and saying "no". I wanted to help put his sack into the luggage compartment, but he declined immediately. I had no choice but to let him hold it tight.

A little while later, we started to serve lunch, and I saw him sitting there like before.  He still appeared very nervous.  I handed him the lunch box, but again he waved his hand to refuse.  The chief attendant went over and kindly asked if he was sick.  He said in a humble voice that he wanted to go to the toilet, but was unsure if he was allowed to walk inside the cabin, and he was afraid of damaging something in the aircraft.

We told him that it was all right, and asked a male guard to take him to the lavatory.  When we served beverages for the second time, I saw him licking his lips as he was looking at other passengers, who were drinking water. I did not ask and put a cup of hot tea on his tray table.  And just then, he got scared and jumped up from his seat and said, "No, no."  I said, "please take some water as you are thirsty."  Then he shocked me by pulling out a stack of notes from his pocket, all in yuans and cents. He tried to thrust them into my hand.I told him that the tea was free.  He did not believe and said that nobody had given him water when he wanted to ask for something to drink as he felt thirsty walking in the street.  He got driven out like a unwelcoming person. He went on to tell me that, to save money, he had tried to avoid taking a bus, and had actually walked a long way before he caught a bus going to the airport.  He did not have much cash and had to ask for water from roadside restaurants.But most of the time he was mistaken as a beggar and driven out.

We continued to tell him that he did not have to pay in the aircraft.  At long last he was convinced, sat down and started to drink tea slowly.  We asked him if he was hungry and if he needed to have lunch.  He insisted that he did not need.  He said that he had two sons, that both did not let him down and went to college.  The younger son was in his junior year in college, and the older one had landed a job. He was on his way to Beijing to see his younger son.  The working son wanted to move his parents to live together with him,but they were not used to life in the city and went back home.  On this trip he was going to see his younger son. The older son did not want his dad exhausted from a long travel.  He bought an air ticket for him.  He was afraid that his dad would get lost as he had never flown, so he had requested to fly with him.  But however hard his son had tried, this old man refused because he believed taking an airplane was way too expensive.
He finally agreed, but would never allow his son to fly with him.  He  insisted that he go alone.  He carried a sack of sweet potato chips for his younger son.  At the security check, the airport staff asked him to check in his luggage, but he strongly objected.  He was afraid that his chips would be broken and his son would not like them.  We told him that it is safe to put the sack into the luggage compartment. He stood up and studied the compartment for a long time before putting it in.During the flight, we poured water into his cup for many times, and he was always very polite to say "thank you".But he still refused to have lunch, despite the fact that he seemed starving.  When the aircraft was about to land,he timidly asked us if we could give him a small bag,and if we would put his lunch into that bag for him to take away.

We of course agreed.  He said that he had never seen such delicious food.  He would take it to his younger son.We were once again astonished.  The common lunch that we saw every day could be so precious in the eyes of this rural old man.  He would rather stay hungry to save it for his son!  We were so touched that we wanted to give him all the rest of the lunch boxes.  However, he immediately looked anguished and refused to accept.  He said that he only wanted his share and should not take advantage of  others'.  I was deeply moved.  It was of course no big deal, but I was profoundly educated.

I had thought that all was over when he suddenly did one thing that I would never forget all my life!  He suddenly went down on his knees and kept kowtowing. Tears welling up in his eyes, he said, "You are so nice.You are so nice.  I live in the countryside and only have one meal a day.  I have never drunk such sweet water,or seen so fine lunch.  You did not despise me and were even so warm to me.  I truly do not know how to thank you enough.  I hope you will have good luck.  You are good people."  He was kowtowing as he spoke and cried. We helped him get to his feet and kept consoling him. We asked a ground attendant to take care of him before going back to finish what's left to do.

To be honest, I'd worked five years as an air hostess and had seen many different passengers, extremely rude,violent as to beat people, and crude and rough, but I'd never seen one kneeing down for us just to say 'thank you'.  We do not deserve such gratitude from this old man.We simply poured water to his cup for a few extra times,and he was willing to knee down for us!  Plus, I saw him carry the huge sack of sweet potato chips, refuse to eat so that he could save a meal for his son, and not willing to take more than his share of food.  I truly felt ashamed for myself.  I must learn to be grateful for others.  It was this old man who taught us how to live a life of goodwill and integrity.

Touching story~Pure in heart of a farmer......

Credited to http://www.24en.com/column/bluebird/2010-09-27/130046.html

Impossible means possible~

I am going to start my uni life again~i think i will get busier than ever, hope this year is a fine year for me. I mean it's fine as long as i do my best. I mean the journey still very long for me. I mean the journey still carry on right to find the right answers to our questions. Now, i'm grown up, not too mature at this stage, but certainly not the age for naive and compulsive behaviour. I just wish everything will be clear for me, a clear mindset, a clear goal, a clear path...Anyway i admit there still got no plan that even thinkable for now, just hope i may find my way out during the journey. Seems like that....it gotta be like that....hmmmm....Oh yeah, one of my favourite cutie group~support them

*I'm not biased by the way...just she is so cute...haha

I just watched my love from the star recently since they are so many reviews and hot issues, i seldom watch korean drama, i'm impressed by the choreography and photography by the director, i just love the way that everything seems finely connected from Joseon Dynasty to 400 years later. Great actors are extra plus to the drama. Fantasy Romance of an alien and human...probably adding one reason for lovers to say:" Love needs no reason, even difference include species." Anyway, nice drama. Do Min Joon and Cheong Song Yi, these two name will probably hot for a long while~


For daily quote~

Peace and goodnight~^^

Origami- the shape of life perhaps~

I saw this great advertisement in youtube today, such a creative way yet inspiring~

Mark on the Day~

IM SO SORRY BUT I LOVE YOU~

The NeverEnding Story

Out of all stories, there is only one story that never end~

COMING SOON.......

Humorous~

I just found this, made my day~ =)
http://hardlandheartland.blogspot.com/2010/09/eric-im-sorry-i-fucked-up-your-blogpost.html

There is even a hidden word....try find it~hahaXD


Anyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to all my friends and bloggers...wish u have a blast and prosperous holiday~