I'm Not Worthy

Trying to sleep early today but not to expect, i cannot sleep well. Wake up and listen to song. Lately, maybe not that in mood. Reading stuff that can really help in relaxation~

What was mainly important to another?  It's like not feeling important enough or good enough for another. Personally, i felt like nothing much on me that enough for making any offer to anyone, a good one. I just a bunch of non-productive weeds  that are just parasite on full length of mineral soil. Hate myself is it? Nope, i just cannot bare myself to hurt anyone including myself. Not enough bravery as everything just seems to deceive me from doing "more". However it was just simply not there. I am just simply not there. I think believe is what i found the deepest knowledge that one's has to learn. Not enough experience to actually accept a self that really know what the meaning of “Who I Am". Wish i could be like somebody, I wish i could be like him,  Ancient Greek God, "Apollo", is a good sample that I like to be. Well, is just a reason to avoid facts about self alone. I'm just not worthy and so far there are many out there in million times better. All i can do is just complain and abuse myself into a situation of endless sigh, i not being emotional rather i would say is I just being rational, maybe just too rational  that i so harsh to myself. I hope for the best for another coz' i ain't not that important~Please, forgive me for my act~Responsibility is just too much for me......Believe me that one day, no need 100 miles, but a simple step you will find a much better one than what it is now.

I'm just not good enough, I'm just not worthy~




Oh Lord, this is my voice and this is my life~
My World My Vision ~)(IOJOI)(~