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A moral man

Lately, i am having exam, felling much stress, i cannot sleep well or eat well and very dull. I just sitting there by the night, thinking and zoning out at the dining table. My eyes go blurry and i don't even know what i'm thinking by the way. At this moment, my dad just came back from the work. He walked in and saw me. Before he by-pass me, he possibly saw me staring into space and didn't touch my meal. He sit down at my side and say: "Son, what are you thinking? Why you didn't eat?". "Nothing", I replied sluggishly. "Son i know you very stress, don't worry too much ok." "I am stress dad, how can i not worry, i cannot even get good results, i had failed you, i very regret in the past, and now i cannot even do a little bit better." He say: "Son, don't think about the past, think about the future, as long as you didn't fail like last time, good result is doesn't matter. Let me tell you, rich people can eat meat but as for us, an average can also eat meat too. The rich can eat meat everyday, as for us we can eat once a week, couldn't we? The rich eat meat everyday so they have more health problem than us, didn't they?" I smile a bit, almost tend to laugh, but i hold as he continued: "Other people are smart, yes they do, so they can get higher mark, they can get 90 or 100 marks, so if you are not that smart then you can at least get 70 marks or 60 marks if really cannot manage 70. Right? Don't be worry too much, you still got father, your father still can move (what he mean here is he can still work even he is old). So, just try your best, son." The last word make me feel even more sorry for him, because as his son i failed not only cannot perform well but also failed as a son to a father. Father's day has just over last week and I didn't manage to celebrate with him much. I had promised myself to such a wise and loving dad that i will try my best in my life, at least try my best. I had noted down this in my blog to keep remind me that i have a dad which is such a great man and he had given me a valuable lesson that enlighten my life. Thank you, dad~ for supporting your irrational and emotional son.

The things that you and I didn't know~

In this world, we all live in a  modern and high-technology era that improve our lifestyle and provide a more comfort life nowadays. However days pass, they so called city-people and what i termed as "modernized hybrid" had somewhat developed an "intuition" that they can own this world somehow through power, wealth and overthrow others in order to achieve that. These can be seen throughout our daily life everywhere and any time. List of samples that  often can be seen. Sometimes you spread news about others who failed to do something, but you don't know they have serious family issue and other factors etc that leads to that failure. Sometimes you look down others that are retarded and bizarre behaviour, but you don't know they are born like that without choices. Sometimes you comment about others clothes, but you don't know their clothes are bought by their parents or a gift from others etc. Sometimes you smell a disgusting odour about others bodies,but you don't know that they have diseases that give him a smelly sense. Sometimes you criticised others that just smile a lot, but instead you also laugh when you criticising. Sometimes you dislike someone and friend-zoned others just because you judge them by their cover or simply just dislike for no reasons.  If you say they are really bad and hurt you until you deeply wounded, then it's fine. In all these cases, that the others here refer to those who are good and kind hearted. A motivational speaker once say in his speech that "Those who disfavor others are those who don't have proper manner". This is so true as. You claimed you are religious, but instead you dare against what thought by religions which are to be good to others. You claimed you are strong, but instead of protect you bully those who are weak. You claimed you are rich, but instead of helping those in need you mistreat those who are poor. You claimed you are educated, but instead your morality didn't even achieved the fit line. You claimed you have the power to change the world but instead of changing to become better you worsen it than the past. You claimed you are who you are, but you just ignored what others people really are. You insult them like that you also insult the creation of GOD. Our doings, our works, our consequences. Yours uncompromising condemnation of humanity have toxified the society and the world.Where is your humanity? Where is your heart? You asked me: "Where is mine?", then you are just blind that you cannot see it. Don't turn yourself in these. Those who jump in are those who think they are one of them. So instead you just bad mouth and bad comment. Just spend time and try to understand and be on others people shoes, you can't be perfect so don't expect others to be perfect. Just because others didn't tell you their reasons behind and cannot reached your expectation, doesn't mean they don't deserve a living for their own. Solomon norhtup say that "I don't want to survive. I want to live." That's living is hard enough so don't turn down those who wanted to live. Let's make the world a better place. A sincere smile to others is a thousands praises. I know there are still many good person out there. “Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” by Martin Luther King Jr. is often an inspirational sentence that live up till today.